flowersoup

ngl i dont think i rly have a type in women ik my type in men is twinks n more androgynous guys who arent rlly hairy also im not rlly into facial hair

tbh i also like ppl who express themselves a lot like in their clothing

i apologized to _ for not knowing her name and her bf said that she didnt rlly care but i said she rally looked distraught abt it

(maybe i was overthinking, i may not be a reliable narrator)

i bought airpods for $20

they were dirty tho

lowk i realIsd im a bit of an attention whore lowk number one (a friend like made me realize this but he said it in a really nice way so i wasnt offended and ill stop doing that)


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also lowk realizing my friend is deadass a looksmaxxer n so is someone else in my bio class n I cant believe it, he (the friend) lowk got on me for borrowing someone (whose also a friend n happens to be a girl) a dollar

he lowk called me captain save a hoe

(apparently she was asking him for a dollar but either way i wanted to borrow her a dollar cuz were friends n i trust her, its not cuz shes a girl, i borrowed a dude more money today)

like i get hes trying to advise me but like im not like that n it lowk made me feel bad

also other dude in my class w a gf (who is the other looksmaxxer) pretty much said that i should only be giving money to immediate family or a gf n that he practically said that i should be getting something in return (sexuality)
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everything within the hyphens happened in bio btw
we have a test tomorrow so i studied for it lowk (for bio)
we did this jeopardy thingy n ppl werent paying attention which pmo my bio teacher m she said half the class should be failing but she bumps up the tests grades n that she wont be doing that anymore

guitar was lowk stressful as we have this long song
compsci i forgot
math we have a quiz tmmrw

the less my parents know the easier my life is

(this has somehow always been true)

im realizing im being meanspirited n even though im doing it in jest its still mean n i will stop because i dont wanna make others feel bad n be just a source of negativity

i wont elaborate cuz i feel like itd give ppl ammo against me n make me seem bad or maybe its not as bad as i think

how do people center themselves less

i wish i had a therapist to share my posts with or something or a mental health professional
maybe they would make me feel better

when i die i want a guitar at my gravestone for people to play and i want people to take pictures with the gravestone for fun n stuff and to.visit

its lowk dumb im js venting on here cuz highk no one cares like that n i wish someone did pop in to ask but id be afraid to be honest im not sure if im alr in all honesty

thank
u for reading this

my parents may be getting me n my bro life360

funny vending machine story

so today i was buying chips cuz i got a drink n i had some of it left
(i got.the drink.cux the school had grape juice today and it tasted like delsym also my school has vending machines which prolly isnt that common ok im so tired of being NGL)

also btw i asked my teacher if i could buy the chips cuz class was gonna start soon n he said yea

so i bought the chips w a friend n he was next to me n the chips got stuck in the machine so he was wobbling it and hitting it but they didnt fall so i ended up buying another bag

also i js remember i was talking to this girl n her friend n they were nice to.me n it made me realize i need to stop feeling so negative n ppl r.usually nice